Sunday, April 19, 2015

Behind the Screens

I love Facebook and Instagram like anyone else. Having family across the nation and friends dotted across the globe, social media helps keep us updated on the fine details of each others lives (AKA business). They can see where we are, what we are doing, and any shenanigans that Paisley has been in that day. It's a nice tool to help share news in time of need, raise money, or even ask "What type of diapers is best?" or "Hey, who has the best Chinese take out in town?" What we often forget, though, is that Facebook distorts and can be extremely one-sided.

We always post and share the good. It's almost as if talking about our struggles, mistakes, or bad days makes us look weak. So we prance around painting this perfect picture of what our life is like. What people forget, though, is we LIVE said life 24/7. 365 days a year. A social media post lasts a second and it's gone. It's seriously the smallest snip into a life well spent.

I've posted a cheesy/smiley picture of Paisley, then *literally* 5 minutes later we are crying because we are hungry, and we throw ALL the DVDs on the floor. I'm like, "Well that was short lived."

I post about a yummy restaurant we went to and talk about how great life is, then go home and stay up all night  with heartburn or a headache.

I post about vacations or something that I miss, you scroll, read, and continue on. That burden and thought stays with me all day....all night...and sometimes long after that.

You see a post of how grateful I am  for my spouse. "Wow!" you think. "She spends A LOT of time with him to love him THAT much!" Actually, I see him for a few hours at night before we slip off to sleep to prepare for yet another long day. But yes, I do love him dearly.

You see a picture of me with an old friend out to lunch. You think, "Glad Kayla can make lunch plans with them and no one else!" When having lunch together was a complete coincidence in the first place (because schedules stink), but long overdue and needed anyway. 

I post about how much I love my baby girl and would do anything to keep her happy. That may seem like a confident move on my part or that I never have bad days, but I question my decisions as a mom day in and day out, something that doesn't often get shared by anyone. Motherhood brings more insecurities than we let on.

Oh man, Kayla is posting ANOTHER article from the news. She must REALLY like reading. Like....I wonder why she doesn't work at a bookstore or something. Am I right?

"Hey, so and so is at the gym. Again. Working on their fitness. Doing their thang. Seriously, do they not care about anything else?"

I could keep going, but I think you get my drift. Okay, I know I'm not the only one guilty here. There is SO much MORE behind that screen of yours. There's lives being lived. There's people being loved, missed, and cherished. There's tears shed, both good and bad, insecurities resurfaced, and words exchanged. There's wet, sloppy kisses and even a brutal chastisement. We don't read half these things. We don't SEE half these things either. But they HAPPEN! The sooner we all realize that life is more than what WE SEE from other people, the better we will all be. So many miscommunications, so many hard feelings. 

So this is me declaring my imperfections as a person. I have so many, I'll probably live to be 202 so God can give me plenty of chances to get them ironed out. I'm making note that I know YOU *live* too, and you do SO MUCH MORE than just read/share/post a scripture and take a snapshot of the weather.

Keep posting those baby pictures. Keep posting those inspirational videos. Keep posting the picture of your friend, your lost loved one, your current battle, your workout, your job,  your new dog, your grandma's headstone, your old beat up car, your whatever. I know you're busy living your life, and I know you got more going on than just that little, singular post- trust me!

I'm declaring that though my life isn't perfect and it's not just what you see online, it really is the perfect life for me.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have an AMAZING gift and life to live.




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