Where You Want Me

Coming to Hawaii was a huge test of faith for me. As an Idaho girl with roots deeper than the Grand Canyon itself, it was something I was excited yet completely terrified for. However, with a lot of prayer, I knew we were supposed to come. Nate had been applying to jobs left and right, which was a trial in and of itself for us, and then this opportunity literally fell out of the sky. We had 10 days for Nate to finish school, pack up our house, put it in storage, and fly over.

Looking back, there's no doubt in my soul that God intervened in our life just when He needed to. We both felt so strongly that He was directing us to this little island in the middle of the ocean. We weren't really certain why. Was there someone we needed to touch? Was there something we needed to accomplish? Maybe it was strictly for us and our growing. Maybe it was a test of faith alone.

With unsettled souls (again), we now sit in the crossroads of "where do we go now," "where do we want to be," and "what are we supposed to do to fulfill God's will". Are we needed more on the mainland than we are here? Are we exactly where we need to be? How long in one place is long enough?

I remind myself that God has yet to let us down, and He changes the winds in our sails just when we need it. We just need to be willing to stay on the boat.

Yesterday in church, I was feeling bombarded with all of these things (curse you, analytical brain!), and as our organist started to play this song to close our Sacrament Meeting, my dam completely disintegrated, and I sat in a pile of tears. I don't know where we need to be, but I KNOW God will send us where He needs us. Maybe He already has. Maybe it's in the works. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

The video won't work on my phone, but will on my computer. Angry. 

You can YouTube it. :)

1. 1. It may not be on the mountain height
   Or over the stormy sea,
   It may not be at the battle's front
   My Lord will have need of me.
   But if, by a still, small voice he calls
   To paths that I do not know,
   I'll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in thine:
   I'll go where you want me to go.
2.   (Chorus)
     I'll go where you want me to go, dear Lord,
     Over mountain or plain or sea;
     I'll say what you want me to say, dear Lord;
     I'll be what you want me to be.
3. 2. Perhaps today there are loving words
   Which Jesus would have me speak;
   There may be now in the paths of sin
   Some wand'rer whom I should seek.
   O Savior, if thou wilt be my guide,
   Tho dark and rugged the way,
   My voice shall echo the message sweet:
   I'll say what you want me to say.
4. 3. There's surely somewhere a lowly place
   In earth's harvest fields so wide
   Where I may labor through life's short day
   For Jesus, the Crucified.
   So trusting my all to thy tender care,
   And knowing thou lovest me,
   I'll do thy will with a heart sincere:
   I'll be what you want me to be

So acting in faith and spontaneity like we do best, we stand with open hearts and minds.

"But if, by a still, small voice he calls to paths that I do not know
 I'll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in thine: I'll go where you want me to go."